I've always been a "mom's girl", I guess, and it's hard to be away from her for long periods of time. I know once I'm "grown up" I'll get over that, but going on trips without her is hard. I'm going away with my dad for 2 weeks to look at colleges and I get scared and panicky when I remember she's not coming. I love my dad with all my heart, and I've been on a week long trip with him before, but spending time with my mom comes so much easier to me. I don't often use my tumblr to write such personal things, but I needed to express this. I wish I could conjure up the courage to not feel this way, and be way more excited than I actually am to go my favorite place in the world.